The letter

What if you like someone through all your heart but are unable to express your feelings straightforward?Can letter solve your problem?Know the true story behind the letter.

            

                                            THE LETTER

We were all gathered in a huge hall.I don't recall why I belonged there sitting on the chair that was placed for us in a circle.I look around me,my friends were as anxious as I was,all my school and college mates.I don't understand why I feel so close to them,i feel like approaching each of and hugging them with all these missed feelings i have.

We were laughing,chattering and changing seats to get closer to the ones whom we always admire.Then we are intrupped.Oh my God,The teacher,she is my dearest teacher of my old school.She was the only teacher whom I trusted when I was in three.

I felt overwhelmed.she asked if we had done anything better in our life,if we had helped the needy ones ever or if we had cared about someone else then us.She was just five feets away from me.I can feel tears trying to cross the boundary and roll down freely.I controlled myself as much as I can and I felt ashamed that my answer was no,The big and nasty No because I am too busy in my life.what a pity i say to myself.She started telling us about so many things that I don't remember.Everyone was taking notes while I was trying to fit it in a small piece of paper.She questioned me if I could take all the notes in that small paper?

I nodded my head from right to left and vice versa answering no.I searched my bag and found two notebooks.I knowingly choosed the other one,i remember writing and drawing uncessary things in that last page.How could i have embrassed myself infront of her?She took the notebook from my desk intending to turn the page for me.But then,a piece of wrapped gift fell down.Well,that isn't a gift,i remember that it was a love letter i wrote for him.Teacher tore the cover and I was getting more and more nervous_i can feel my heart pounding...oh no..she will find out..you idiot..how could you?My mind was shouting inside my head.I gently requested her to read it herself if she wanted to but not infront of all of us.She agreed and then said that she loved collecting those letters reading them and shared us a story which i can't remember but after that one by one classmates handles their letter,someone even gave their personal diary to her.we were all cheerful while my eyes opened to see my mother yelling at me..How can you sleep while whole of the world is awake??it's been 10AM.

Well the story isn't finished yet..i wondered if I could collect all those letters that once we wrote from our heart but couldn't gain that much courage to handle them.well,might sound crazy but sometimes I wish that I could have given the letter.At least he could have known that he is my only crush.

One day i was traveling in a bus or just going to a bank for some details.I was wondering if I could see him and there he was near the stop...I called him and he sat in an empty seat by my side a bit surprised or shocked maybe that i never called him before.I was really happy to see him..maybe that dream made me feel so..maybe that letter after so much of time.I 

 started telling things without asking his present timeline..or where he was going.Do you know that?You have always been my crush.I looked at him and he just smiled without speaking a word.So i continued..in school in college,i wanted you to know.I remember those days and I feel really happy..They were the happiest days in school.Everybody in our class knew that you were my crush but you never reacted..we always looked into each other eyes...smiled sometimes..i used to exchange place with my friends so that I could be closer.You don't know how special you were to me..those days i was brave and bold enough to talk to you..wait for you and do unnecessary things to grab your attention.Do you remember that truth and dare?That day my friend dared me to handshake and say i like you and I did too..Days went on by and friends said that you liked one of my classmates.You may not know that I even fought with her because of that,i didn't talk with her for a year or more.That year was over and we didn't spoke a word so I thought that i would never see you again..i even tried to write a letter for you in last page of your copy but was unable to..You know I was surprised when I knew that you were in same college though different faculty.When you used to be in the same bus i used to know first..and when I told my friends they used to be like how do you know??But as time passesed we changed..i started ignoring you and never said what I wanted to say long time before..i don't know if you ever liked me but I did.I took a huge breath noticing that i have a audience,college students,listening to me.They were now looking at him...for the answer.To know his part of the story.He was still smilling without saying anything.He has always been like that to me..i said to myself.

He said that he missed his spot so we got down while people wanted to hear the story were disappointed but were satisfied that we were out together and will be together maybe for few more hours.

And i say to myself..i will exactly say that if I will see him again..ending my daydream..waking up from my imagination and yet till this time I was still in bed.

By-Daydreamer